Missing lil girls

Its almost two years now since my step daughters moved out west  we miss them dearly . We really wish we had more money to be able to go out and visit them more their grown up so fast its hard to beleive youngest is now three years old . I know my son missing them not being here for christmas too they had fun times together . Maybe we might win lotto help us get out there more to see them.

Girls can play games too

Well as most of you ladies know 90% of the time we think its always men playing head games with us and breaking our hearts . Did you ever think ladies do it too ive seen it time and time again these young guys trying their hardest to win the girl over by spending tons of money on them and expressing their feelings to them and once its all out in the open the man s heart gets stomp on . Yes I said man  . Men have feelings too and when they show them doesnt mean their gay and odd isnt that what a female wants a man to be so loving and caring and tell you how they feel about you or is it the facts true a girl rather have a bad ass boy whom dont show anything at all. Well ladies gotta start learning to stop playing the game before its too late and something back fires on you and burns you in the ass in the end . If someone s intrested in you and your not intrested in them period let them know before dragging them on while they are wasting time with you when someone else is out their searching for a soulmate like him . Girls play it alot harder than men and its sicken and they wonder why they get a bad name .

A white christmas

Well my lil man is so excited for christmas now we got our tree up and half the lights up outside  too almost finish he helped alot today getting things ready , as count down begins i think hes  gonna be more and more hyper along with the of the house lol . We went out shopping last nite for more lights and also got my ring FINALLY after two years of being engaged and not being able to afford one we finally got it it fits our budget and its pretty thats all the matters . So weekend beings tommrrow we will see what happens

Hemophilia camp penny drive begin s

Each year we raise money to help get our son to camp pass couples of years weve tried to raise enough money but wasnt successful with it so Im starting it now and by next summer we should have enough to get him there and back and  get items he needs for it too .All we can do is keep fingers crossed its day one and Ive gotten jar on my kitchen table and put change laying around it in so far and we got over $12.57 in it YIPPPIE  off to a good  start ,will post photos later on

Sisterhood

Sisterhood became a big different turn for us when my sister came to live with us almost about a year ago. Wow theres so much more you learn about each other after so many years of not always being together .But known we love each other and will be there always no matter what is counts the most . Sisters will have their issues and fights but I hope people releiaze how important family is and how spending much time together as possble can have such a deep impact on each others lives and realtionship . So I hope anyone reading this knows the lifes too short dont hold grudges forever someday you may not have a chance to tell that special someone on how you feel. Id see it more and more on how life s too short lets all stop fighting and love one another ans share the happy times and tears .

Great role modles leaves footprints on your heart

Its seem the ones the mean the most to you and such a short time must leave earth to head on home because god is calling for them to come on home. I gotta say Ive gotten ask for a better grandmother and aunt when these two ladies were brought into my life they help me threw so many hard times and still til this day I wish they were here we miss them dearly . My nanny dora was like a mom to me and aunt cherly she was like a friend I never had as for me when I was in school I was tease alot for my height and because my up bringing wasnt so pleasant .


Another I love  to talk to from time to time is my aunt whom also is my god mother nancy she amazes me shes been threw so much in her life with her mental illness shes an angel I wish she lived closer to me truely I do .

Wow theres just so many ive been bless with close friend whom help me Ive couldnt thank more would be Tom and alfred  they were their for me when others wasnt when i was thinkin on given up on life they help me threw . And someone or somehow why I keep thinking on how lucky i am to have such amazing man in my life in such short two years and made up for the times Ive been down and out and given me soo much love and ineffection  And am glad now weve stuck together threw these hard times and starting over lives over with our children this is our family and weve been blessed with this great kids .Im sure some day we will be on our own two feet and be able to have better luck with income suitations . Ive always wonder if love can grow without money he surely showed me it can we kept together threw .I CANT  wait to spend the rest of my life with you .

Happy Thought s

What make s me the happiest on such a horrble day is looking into my son s big blue eyes known how grateful i am to have such a wonderful child. Hes my world hes amazes me on how smart and strong he is especially with all weve been threw in these past eight years . Some things in life I wish I change but theres one thing for sure I wouldnt is given birth to amazing baby boy whom makes everyone smile when he winks those big eyelashes at you . He s so funny he kepts saying lately on how he cant wait to be a teenanger he keeps  counting and saying to everyone five more years Ill be 13 and ill be a teenager to be thats kinda scary thing known my baby boy has grown up into such a handsome man . So when Im feeling down and out these are thoughts that always go threw my head . I dont care what others think of me as a mother when a little boy reaches for his mommy and doesnt wanna let go and says he loves me and wants to live with mommy forever I know ive must done something right . And thats letting my child know I love him no matter what and will do whatever I can for him to live a long and happy decent life .

FIGHT WITH NB POWER

In summer of 2010 we were just getting ready to bring Dawson to camp and than boom our power was cut off because we were struggling to make ends meet  .So my finace had to go to another city for a second job to try come up with the money to cover the bills since Im having issues with finding a job outside the home for years main thing is finding a babysitter to come inside the home noone is willing to look after a child with special needs for mid wage since I can not fork out $20 an hour for caregiver . So I try to work from home selling everything from avon to candles but finding custmoers living outside the city limits isnt gonna come easy I know first hand been there done that . So we call media news rooms etc noone would give an helping hand because election was going on so we called nb power back trying to make them a deal and explaining why its so important the power had to be left on due to his med s were inside our fridge and had to be kept a certain tempture would they nope not until full amount we own was paid upfront grrrr .So this is second year weve miss his camp trip wishing and hoping for a better year to come so I try and raise funds to help us get him there and back plus items thats is needed for his camping trip for hemophilia camp.  So lesson learned and we now had to sign contract with the company explaining why it may not happen again .

Our fundrasier

Back in 2009 was a rough year for us being hosptilzed alot and not having a good source of income on the mother s behalf  left them struggling for transportation for his appoinments for  treatments etc .So once things were kinda settling down with his bleeds in the ankles .Mom walked to local mall in her area and sold scented candles to rasie money for a wheelchair odd time people would drop by the table and place an order but it didnt help much so lucky an local lady went out to stores and help raise money somehow the family was so thankful for the help this lady raise over $3000 dollars by asking for donations for companies n stores . Photo above is a borrow wheelchair from hosptail

Hemophilia day 2010

On apirl 18 2010 We went to local mall at cfb gagetown nb area to raise awareness to people about hemophilia .We made our own t shirts and Poster too and I was very disappointed in the lack of intrest to people whom walked on by and wouldnt look at us or even when my son offer them pamphlet they shook their heads no and kept walking . Im hoping in year 2011 will be differnt and hoping to have more people with me to attend this event . I wanna make  people aware of this I find theres not alot information out the to inform people on whats going on .I hear some people say years ago they use to see commericals on tv about it but now I see nothing at all. MY GOAL 2011 IS TO Do awarness in a public place and also begin a walk for hemophilia

Hate Playing guessing games

Well recently had a parent teacher meeting with my son s school last week. Weve begin to wonder on what to do with his learning issues and behavior problems in and outta school it seems weve been struggleing with this issue off and on since he was five years old but than again yes it doesnt help him moving from place to place and jumping from school to school and realtionship after realtionship with his mommy . Weve done 123 magic program and other parenting programs nothing seems to work  especially having social worker after social worker brought into the home trying to get him onto a good routine and postive outlook on life . We once again booked appointment with his doctor since people are given me ideas that he maybe not adhd  and maybe austim so I dunno whats gonna take place at this appointment ive found check list online for me to do for learning disablities and austim so we will take it from there I guess .

Welcoming him into the world

It all begin when Dawson was infant baby we had no idea he had hemophilia at the age of six months .Dawson was getting swallowen hands with bruises all over it so big he could barely hold his baby bottle when his mom bought it to the family doctors attention she told her its just bug bite well dawson s mom though it seem werid it come and go every so often . So when she went in again for dawson s check up s she told the doctor she wanted tests done she told his mom no his too young for being tested for anything . Well time pass by and one nite at the age of two years old Dawson was crying mostly all nite long his mom thought it was odd because dawson sleeps threw the nite and barely ever cries unless hes hungry or something . So she ask him to come into her bedroom he cried back he cant move so she ran into his bedroom and carry him into the livingroom to see whats going on she couldnt notice anything so she rush him into the hosptail . They looked him over and notice his knee was swalloen so they took some blood work and x ray s on his knee and than ultrasound too and than they notice fluid on his knee they told ms vail dawsons knee would have to be drained she felt sick to her stomach known her baby would have to get his knee drained then shortly after the doctor came back in and told her they were gonna admit him into the hosptail until they fingure out what cause this two weeks go by and then a nurse comes in and tells ms vail the news that her son has hemophilia a she had no idea on what that was . So they begin him on factor eight because he has hemophilia a lucky canada covers treatments which the nurse has told her and given her a booklet to read on about hemophilia . From that day on they struggle money wise and health wise with dawson she couldnt finish school finding it hard to get the time to go since it seemed they lived in the hosptail alot of the time . At one point they told her she may have to go Iwk hosptail in halfiax to get his port a cath put in because he was a strong young boy whom wouldnt allow nurses give him full treatment so he kept repeating bleeds in his knee . Now Dawson is eight years old and also been also now dealing with ADHD with no meds at all his doctor recommonds not to give it to him . So as most know hyper boys lover to do things their not suppose to so from jumping to climbing on things makes it hard to settle him down and he ends up with bleeds in his knees and ankles making it so his being forced into a wheelchair from weeks and weeks . What ms vail has learned from all this is God will only give you what you can handle which been more than she thought herself she can bare as a single mom jumping from home to home and job to job and realtionship to realtionship it doesnt seem it will ever end . So she thinks from time to time but than she releaize a young boy brings her joy and love to her heart and wouldnt trade it for the world. Shes currently still at stay at home army wife whom trying her best to get to work outside the home which isnt coming easy but shell still keep her faith is all she runs on .