Missing lil girls

Its almost two years now since my step daughters moved out west  we miss them dearly . We really wish we had more money to be able to go out and visit them more their grown up so fast its hard to beleive youngest is now three years old . I know my son missing them not being here for christmas too they had fun times together . Maybe we might win lotto help us get out there more to see them.

Girls can play games too

Well as most of you ladies know 90% of the time we think its always men playing head games with us and breaking our hearts . Did you ever think ladies do it too ive seen it time and time again these young guys trying their hardest to win the girl over by spending tons of money on them and expressing their feelings to them and once its all out in the open the man s heart gets stomp on . Yes I said man  . Men have feelings too and when they show them doesnt mean their gay and odd isnt that what a female wants a man to be so loving and caring and tell you how they feel about you or is it the facts true a girl rather have a bad ass boy whom dont show anything at all. Well ladies gotta start learning to stop playing the game before its too late and something back fires on you and burns you in the ass in the end . If someone s intrested in you and your not intrested in them period let them know before dragging them on while they are wasting time with you when someone else is out their searching for a soulmate like him . Girls play it alot harder than men and its sicken and they wonder why they get a bad name .

A white christmas

Well my lil man is so excited for christmas now we got our tree up and half the lights up outside  too almost finish he helped alot today getting things ready , as count down begins i think hes  gonna be more and more hyper along with the of the house lol . We went out shopping last nite for more lights and also got my ring FINALLY after two years of being engaged and not being able to afford one we finally got it it fits our budget and its pretty thats all the matters . So weekend beings tommrrow we will see what happens

Hemophilia camp penny drive begin s

Each year we raise money to help get our son to camp pass couples of years weve tried to raise enough money but wasnt successful with it so Im starting it now and by next summer we should have enough to get him there and back and  get items he needs for it too .All we can do is keep fingers crossed its day one and Ive gotten jar on my kitchen table and put change laying around it in so far and we got over $12.57 in it YIPPPIE  off to a good  start ,will post photos later on

Sisterhood

Sisterhood became a big different turn for us when my sister came to live with us almost about a year ago. Wow theres so much more you learn about each other after so many years of not always being together .But known we love each other and will be there always no matter what is counts the most . Sisters will have their issues and fights but I hope people releiaze how important family is and how spending much time together as possble can have such a deep impact on each others lives and realtionship . So I hope anyone reading this knows the lifes too short dont hold grudges forever someday you may not have a chance to tell that special someone on how you feel. Id see it more and more on how life s too short lets all stop fighting and love one another ans share the happy times and tears .

Great role modles leaves footprints on your heart

Its seem the ones the mean the most to you and such a short time must leave earth to head on home because god is calling for them to come on home. I gotta say Ive gotten ask for a better grandmother and aunt when these two ladies were brought into my life they help me threw so many hard times and still til this day I wish they were here we miss them dearly . My nanny dora was like a mom to me and aunt cherly she was like a friend I never had as for me when I was in school I was tease alot for my height and because my up bringing wasnt so pleasant .


Another I love  to talk to from time to time is my aunt whom also is my god mother nancy she amazes me shes been threw so much in her life with her mental illness shes an angel I wish she lived closer to me truely I do .

Wow theres just so many ive been bless with close friend whom help me Ive couldnt thank more would be Tom and alfred  they were their for me when others wasnt when i was thinkin on given up on life they help me threw . And someone or somehow why I keep thinking on how lucky i am to have such amazing man in my life in such short two years and made up for the times Ive been down and out and given me soo much love and ineffection  And am glad now weve stuck together threw these hard times and starting over lives over with our children this is our family and weve been blessed with this great kids .Im sure some day we will be on our own two feet and be able to have better luck with income suitations . Ive always wonder if love can grow without money he surely showed me it can we kept together threw .I CANT  wait to spend the rest of my life with you .

Happy Thought s

What make s me the happiest on such a horrble day is looking into my son s big blue eyes known how grateful i am to have such a wonderful child. Hes my world hes amazes me on how smart and strong he is especially with all weve been threw in these past eight years . Some things in life I wish I change but theres one thing for sure I wouldnt is given birth to amazing baby boy whom makes everyone smile when he winks those big eyelashes at you . He s so funny he kepts saying lately on how he cant wait to be a teenanger he keeps  counting and saying to everyone five more years Ill be 13 and ill be a teenager to be thats kinda scary thing known my baby boy has grown up into such a handsome man . So when Im feeling down and out these are thoughts that always go threw my head . I dont care what others think of me as a mother when a little boy reaches for his mommy and doesnt wanna let go and says he loves me and wants to live with mommy forever I know ive must done something right . And thats letting my child know I love him no matter what and will do whatever I can for him to live a long and happy decent life .